Days of My Life

Talk about daily life of a teenage girl in Iraq, and days of suffering and success. My nick name will be Sunshine..

Tuesday, April 08, 2014

happiness and sadness were competing to have a biggest space in my heart that day ..

i wrote few posts and i didn't publish them
I'd write a post and in the next day something would happen , and i update the post again, until i found it full of inconsistent events !!..
the last 3 weeks were full of tension, i waited until i feel more relax to be able to write again .
I woke up on Thursday 13/3 , the weather was really nice , i decided to spend a nice time writing a post, so I opened the window , brought my laptop , prepared a delicious piece of cake and coffee, how happy did I  felt when electricity came in the morning!
 I wrote few words until my grandma came crying saying a friend of ours lost his son , when a car bomb exploded ( i am not going to mention the horrible details) , i was shocked , became speechless! a voice in my heart was saying "i hope it is not true " while my mind  draw a complete image based on my grandma's description of the painful accident .
My best and close friend was going to get married on Friday 14/3 , i had to hide the sadness in my voice each time she called me , i didn't want her to hear such things before her wedding .
 you know how nervous a bride can be in the day before her wedding, she had to make sure everything was ok and she didn't forget to prepare a tiny detail for this big day !
 my friend and i planned together for her wedding and i did some of the decorations , I was putting my last touches while tears running out on my cheeks ..
happiness ( for my close friend) and sadness (to hear about this lose)  were competing to have a biggest space in my heart that day .. it was exhausting


Tuesday, February 25, 2014

why i couldn't write for two years !

hello my dear readers , two years passed since my last post  .. i definitely have a lot to talk about  ..
I graduated from the first term with fine marks last July, so now i became an engineer ( who doesn't have a job , of course )
I had to give up writing , i was so busy with my studying, and graduation project , i had to give up (temporarily) all my hobbies, even going out and my social life ! and concentrate , thank god it gave good results , i look forward to write and hear from you all again 
blogging has been always a part of my life ..



hello everyone , it has been such a long time , do you still remember me  ? 

Monday, June 18, 2012


finally, i just finished my final exams, and feel soooo tired ...
i didn't use internet for ages , and i miss blogging a lot ..

Friday, April 20, 2012

Thanks for being patient ..

after my first semester exams, I took a week off, and went to Baghdad with my family …
Oh what a great vacation, with my grandparents, relatives and neighbors ..
We arrived on Friday, and spent a great week ,visited our neighbors and relatives, went shopping 5 times, visited my favorite place " Al Roubai'e street" , went to the restaurants in Baghdad, celebrated valentine (grandpa took us to a nice restaurant) ,oh Baghdad looked wonderful that day, it was full of white and red , people dressing red, carrying roses and balloons, restaurants were filled with lovers and the decoration was special that day, I ordered  a steak and it came with a heart shape candle, such a lovely idea.. for one day I forgot all about situation and routine .. people celebrate that day with their loved ones and families, and I heard a guy talking in one channel he said " this year, people exaggerated in celebrating valentine they're walking carrying red bears, roses , balloons and cars are filled with roses , load music everywhere, and that's all happening to embitter those who threatened us not to celebrate valentine, it is an overreaction" .. well, I love any occasion that express love and care between people ..

And also, in Baghdad I had an amazing haircut in a new salon, the owner trained in Lebanon and she's very talented, although we made a reservation and had an appointment, we waited for four hours!! It was a chance to meet new people and look into new magazines, I had fun ..
we celebrated my  delayed birthday, and my sister's birthday , the best part is we went to two parites "YAAAAAY".
My neighbor who's a high school teacher got married , so we went to her laylat al hinna party and to her wedding ..
I've written about our weddings tradition few years ago..
Laylat al hinna,is the day before wedding (or two days before wedding), where the bride celebrate with her family ,relatives and friends , and it's from our traditions to put hinna in little figure for the bride and groom (the bride can wash it immediately if she doesn't like the orange color), and then the bride put hinna for everyone who wants ..
So, we had lovely time, and they hired a band of two women (one of them sings and the other play music) ..
The wedding was nice and I had fun in both parites..
When we came home from the wedding, grandma prepared delicious ice cream , and that was the end of Baghdad visit events ..

Two weeks ago, my family and I spent two days in Dhook, we stayed in a nice motel , the view was gorgeous, my brother (8 years old)kept asking are we still in Iraq?? He didn't believe so! Everything looks different, the streets, the traffics , the malls, we felt different, safe, and remembered  what is it like to walk in the street with sense of dignity, no police yelling or concrete walls everywhere, I hope every city of Iraq become like the northern cities ..
We went shopping (my favorite hobby !!), had nice lunch in a restaurant called malta, it was an elegant place, also visited Dhooks dam, and went to dream city (children's city), it was so much fun, and in the next day we went  to anishky cave, then had lunch in nice restaurant, and went to a mall.. 
then came back to Mosul  , to the same busy life and daily routine and exams  , as the 2'nd semester is close to end, I feel more stressed and exhausted...
Thanks for being patient ..

Monday, January 23, 2012

A Holiday without Break !!..

My exams will start on Wednesday, so I've been studying hard since the holiday began ..
This year (as well as last year), we had our mid-year -holiday (which lasts for two weeks) before our exams!!! Because Shiites have their own "religious ceremony" 
We all felt frustrated, we were supposed to have a rest for two weeks after exams, and now we should spend time studying hard as professors gave us more subjects and we expect the questions to be more difficult as we had extra time to study (as they said) !!! ..
I studied a lot, solved hundreds of questions , studied my own lectures, as well as lectures of last year to get benefits of their notes , brought helpful books and resources and solved the mid questions of the past 4 or 5 years!
engineering is an awesome field and I want to enjoy my time in college , so this year I didn't pay attention to our professors' hard character and the way they try to let us feel down especially when they show-off and talk about how no student could answer their questions and the low percentage of success among students  etc ..  this year I feel more busy but much more relaxed and enjoy the subjects I am reading without being disturbed and their words rolling in my mind all time … I have faith in god and all I can do is, being the best I can , why should I pay attention to negative comments that will not improve my skills nor help me at all??…

 I really want to write a long post and have millions on thought is my head .. but my spare time barely exists .. I spend the majority of time studying , and when I finish I have housework to do , since my mom had her back disk I try to rush and do all housework need to be done so that she doesn’t hurt her back…  I promise to write after my exams end(they last for less than for 3 weeks) , thanks for being patient with me :D
I took this picture today while I was studying …  

Saturday, December 24, 2011

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas my dear readers..
may all of your dreams come true and may you spend a wonderful Christmas..
to my christian friends in Iraq
i wish you a peaceful and safe Christmas with the one you love, may god bless Iraq and hopefully one day all casts can celebrate their ceremonies peacefully


Saturday, November 26, 2011

another Hi ..

Hello friends …

I don't remember the last time I wrote a post, it seems like whenever I want to write , something happens and make me really busy!!

So I'll start from Eid al futur (in September) :

Since I started blogging, I used to publish a post about Eid and food and relatives gathering, but that Eid was different, we had a family meeting on the first day, but when we came home my mom started to have a severe pain in her back, and she couldn't leave bed , she had a sever disk in her back ( sciatic nerve ) .. we couldn't find a doctor in Eid, and had to wait till it was over, long hours passed and the pain was getting worse … I couldn't do anything, I just brought all my copybooks near her bed and studied silently feeling ache in my heart to see dear mom in pain …

As Eid was over, a friend of mom sent her an ambulance and we took her to the doctors who had different opinions, one dr. said she must have a surgery within 5 days, and another said even surgery will not cure her 100% … different opinions and different drugs, but the result was the same, she had dropped foot, and the best painkillers didn't work and she stayed up for many nights until she had exhaustion … then my exams started, and I passed to the third stage (thanks to Allah), but still had two subjects to repeat ..

After my exams were over, my dad took mom to Arbil (after two hours of waiting In the border of our own country although dad had all of my mom's medical reports and X-rays), a Dr. from Jordan gave her new medications and told her she could either have an operation but he won't be able to follow her up, or just take those pills and have long bed rest until he come another time to iraq…

Mom started to read in internet and watch videos about her case and did the proper exercises, she is much better now, although she still have dropped foot, and can't do housework :D but hopefully she will get better in near future ..

During my second attempt exams, my best friend B, invited me to her Nishan party and her wedding party (only two days between those parties), I couldn't attend her nishan party I had a laboratory exam in the next day, and told her I wouldn't be able to attend her wedding as I had digital design exam two days later..

In her wedding day, I needed someone to urge me and tell me that I must go, and I used to go to mom and say "oh god, B is getting married within few hours ", and I'd go to my room and come back again "oh mom, what should I do?? I have an exam two days later and I want to pass it really, but B is getting married and I …… " mom interrupted me saying "and you really think you can concentrate??, go to her wedding, and you can study hard for two days " , when mom said that, I felt so excited, I needed to hear that !!! so I called the driver , it was 12:30 pm and asked him to come at 3:15 pm , and her wedding starts at 4 pm, I got ready by 3 pm, I took my sister and went to her house, she was still in the salon, and I asked everyone not to tell her that I was there, I wanted to make her a little surprise.. B came from salon and went upstairs to dress up, and when she was walking down stairs, I came and stood in the beginning of the crowd (all of her aunts and cousins and their kids), she didn't notice me first and then she said " OH MY GOD OH MY GOD SUNSHINE ", her voice was shaking and my eyes were full of tears, she came downstairs running with her big beautiful white dress looking like an angle, and she is an angle , we hugged and we were both shaking and it was an emotional meeting, she whispered " this is the best part of my wedding"

We've been friends since high school and I've mentioned her in many posts …

We were talking and laughing and started to hear sound of horns and her sister came and said the groom and his family arrived, B was trying to be calm but I could hear her heart beats, when she noticed that her mom wasn't there she felt very nerves ..

it is emotional event for the mother to see her daughter moving to another house (in our culture) …

The groom is a Doctor, and from a respectful religious family and I believe they 're great couples, both have the same thoughts and plan for life, and B is from a very religious educated family as well ..

We took pictures and went to the grooms house ( the party was there) , we had a great time and sang old muslawi songs and had the best day ever, I am very thankful that I went to B's wedding ..

now B is doing great managing between her college and her new life with her husband and I wish them from the bottom of my heart a life full of happiness


The thirds stage seems better for me, the subjects are getting harder, but I liked many of them , and I am getting used to our professors hard characters ! and I every day I come closer to my goal …

As I was attending classes, it was Thursday, a professor announced that all students who didn't pass one or two subjects in second stage should attend the third attempt starting from Tuesday! Which includes me, so I missed the third stage classed and started to study hard, and I passed engineering analysis (only 2 students passed, I am one of them), while no one passed programming and the professor said it happily " I didn't like third attempt , and all students will study the subject again" .. I don't care, because I don't even think that he took a look at our papers , why would I punish myself from someone's else's fault??..

As I didn't go to college for two weeks I missed 28 lectures , so I went to my friends houses in the weekend and studied them together , that's why I've been extremely busy and couldn't publish a post, and also a very serious virus entered my laptop and I took it to an engineer four times to fix the problem, that took over a month, and the internet company blocked blogger and I had to contact them few times to fix that problem as well .. the other thing was , we had a big family meeting in Eid al Adhha ….

My grandparents , as well as two of my parents' uncles and aunt arrived from Jordan and Baghdad and they all spent eid in our house , we had a great time together (and I had a lot of dishes to wash hehhe), uncle M didn't see grandpa for five years, we spent the greatest days ever, I saw relatives of my grandpa whom I don't even know! the kids became young women and young men and looked different !! and there were many new faces , new daughters-in-low and sons-in-low , grandkids , whom we didn't met before !! we took a lot of pictures which I will publish as soon as I have time !!…

I enjoyed the evenings, we had pleasure time, grandpa and his brothers told stories of old days , and I reminded them with old poetries that I learnt from grandpa, we even sang old muslawi songs together ! and laughed a lot on charades-poetries, and jokes , when uncle M (who is the eldest uncle , in his 80es , and a Dr. with a PHD from London) feel sleepy he used to say "sunshine, swear that you will not tell any story , poem , or even talk starting from this minutes, because I don't want to miss that and I feel sleepy" .. so I used to announce the end of the evening, and everyone go to bed by 12 am :D

It is a long long post, I had a lot of things to talk about and excuse me for keeping you all waiting , and I appreciate your E-mails , I try to reply most of them , but I check my yahoo account more often , which is…