Days of My Life

Talk about daily life of a teenage girl in Iraq, and days of suffering and success. My nick name will be Sunshine..

Friday, July 24, 2009

One country with two flags and many contradictions..

When war began in 2003, I remember a speech on TV. Promises to be impressed within 6 months, as a kid at that time, the first thing I thought about was "Disney land", bright future, supermarkets, and big playing yards and similar things, I had many dreams and ambitious of a developed country, I believed in politicians as kind people, I believed we'll be the 51st state, and such lies!!
Now after 6 years of living in a war zone, I didn't see any good thing happening in my life,.. it breaks my heart to see the good people getting killed or leaving the country and the bad ones taking over the control stealing and doing horrible things that makes the Iraqis reputation worse, it kills me to hear the politicians lying and mentioning how many millions they spent so far "rebuilding" , they lie publicly and don't feel ashamed ..
The huge changes in my life since war are horrible, it makes me sad to see the Iraqi cities destroyed and it's people are living in horrifying situation, the politicians tempt poor ,uneducated people by giving them food and blankets. They encouraged people to perpetrate some rituals like weeping in "religious occasions" in order to distribute backwardness, to camouflage them , make them busy and not pay any attention to the country robbing.. the people in the world don't understand that those people don't represent the Iraqis, and think we are responsible in somehow, but the truth is, we are powerless, no matter how we try to change the situation we can't make a phenomenal change..
Anyway, Iraq is in a tremendous chaos , destroyed, but not in the northern part in Iraq, is developing, I feel happy whenever I see Kurdistan al Iraq (the northern part on my country), but in the same time my heart ache because I didn't see the same thing happening in the rest of Iraqi cities. all the good things happened in the Kurdish cities, and all we got is fear, death, hunger and blood , war took place everywhere except Kurdistan, we hope and pray all the cities will be developed the same..
Health issues :
The hospitals in Iraq witness lack in electricity, medicines, and staff, as the doctors were threatened and went to Kurdistan, or left Iraq ..
The patients lay on the dirty floors, even those who are dying, in our hospitals kids who need operation lay on the floor waiting for their turn, you'd see long queue of kids, sick, thin, and poor ..
The hospitals are so dirty and full of insects, many sick people can't find a bed and lay on the floor, even those who just had operations and need comfortable positions, there's no good staff , and lack of every necessary thing, there's no respect for humans..
While in the north of Iraq (Kurdistan), most of our good Drs. Had to work there, the hospitals are so clean, have great equipments, and electricity the whole time, the patients are treated well and have a good care.
People believe that The Drs. Who were threatened, were threatened by Kurds " either you work in our hospitals and we'll provide you with money and good life, or you'll get killed " many refused to be forced to live in Kurdistan in this way, even if they'll get high salaries and left Iraq .. we lost many good Drs.
Our students suffer a lot, in winter we freeze, and in summer we can't tolerate the high temperature without electricity.. without air conditions and heaters, without even a light . adding to that, the crazy situation, the killing and threatening, it is so hard to concentrate while there are so many things going on around us !
Don't forget the closed roads and bridges, sometimes we have to walk for long distance. The educational staff is not good at all, the teachers are out of temper (most of them), and sometimes explain in a wrong way, and we (the students) correct for them. We have no computers, laboratories, good desks, we have no electricity at school, no heaters or fans, no water in WC !! everything is horrible and make it even more harder to concentrate . the windows in our classes broke during many explosions, so sometimes in winter the rain wet us and our copybooks!, and when there's sandstorm students inhale the sand.the same thing in collages, our professors are not good, the good ones left to work in Kurdistan ..
My relative is a professor. He got an opportunity to work in Kurdistan but he refused, after couple of days he got a threaten to leave his city!! Everyone knows those threats are on purpose, so our good professors and doctors leave to Kurdistan .. everyone knows that ..
In the 6th grade, our students most get about 95% par to go to medicine collage, and our curriculum and questions are really hard, and you know through my writing how much did I study in order to get high par ..

While in Kurdistan, the staff is good, they have electricity, security which is the most important thing. They don't have to worry how much they'll have to walk in order to reach school, and don't even think if they'll miss school because of a curfew..
Everything is going smoothly for people in Kurdistan. My friend is Kurdish and lives in Kurdistan, she said " you are living in hell, thank god we don't live like you guys otherwise we would leave our schools !
The students need only 86% par to join the medicine collage, their curricula easier than ours, specially Arabic and religion curricula they are sooooo easy
The Kurdish students can study in our collages, while Arabs can't study in their collages (every year only 2 students can join their universities).

the people who graduate from medicine, dentistry and pharmacy have to serve for two years in other cities far away from their cities, and if they take the certification or MSc. they have to LIVE in other cities fore ever, this is the new system , but Kurdistan have different set of laws..
Our kids and youth feel bored, there aren't any safe place they can express themselves in .. there are only few play yards with simple toys in few neighborhoods. There aren’t any entertainment cities (the one we have doesn't work, no one look after the toys or fix the old ones), there's only a swimming pool (which I don't find clean, it's for boys) , we don't have malls like Kurdistan, and the amusing places we have are few. And kids spend their time playing in streets or watching TV.
Someone must look after those young women and young men, they are the people who'll re-build Iraq, someone must guide them and provide the city with youth centers..
In Kurdistan, there are fabulous restaurants, play yards, children cities, wonderful malls and swimming pools, stadiums, and gorgeous gardens ..

(kurdistan's pics)
(Iraq's pics)
At least 25% of the Iraqis are under the poverty line, can you imagine that?? in the richest country in the whole world.
In Muthana city the people who are under the poverty line form 49%, in babil they form 41%, in salah al Deen the ratio reaches 40%.. while in Dhook it is only 9%, and in both of Arbil and Sulaymaniyah it is 3% (the source is middle east journal) ..
I noticed the huge difference between our financial state and theirs, when I visited Kurdistan the majority of cars models were2009 and 2008 !! so expensive. And the prices there are also high, which means their salaries are much higher than the salaries here..
Iraq has 18 governorates, as a united county we must have one constitution, one flag, one government, and the same loyalty, for Iraq .. but the northern part of my country have it is own president and government, different rules and different constitution, and different flag !
The Iraqi citizens (Kurds and Arabs) love each other, and both of us are unhappy and not satisfied for what's happening ,I am sure they sympathize with us and want us to live peacefully and happily like them . I have lots of Kurdish friends, some of my relatives married to Kurdish women/men, I love their culture a lot, and find them very simple people.. I am frustrated from the GOVERNMENT which is trying to separate us by making such huge differences between our life and theirs.
But you know what? They won't succeed, because the Iraqi citizens will always remain united, we feel glad to see the Kurdish citizen the way they are right now, we'll be even more happy to see them better, and wish one day Iraq in general will be free, developed and nice ..


At 12:45 AM, Blogger Ray-Ray said...

You are growing up to be such a lovely, brilliant young woman. How did you manage to do that, growing up in a war??? I can't completely comprehend where all of your empathy and insight comes from, given the terrors you have seen. Thank you again for all of your posts and sharing your views with us outside of Iraq.

At 7:15 PM, Blogger Don Cox said...

That is a powerful post. All the Iraqi politicians should read it.

But the Kurds did have a very bad time in the 90s. It is only since about 2000 that they have been able to build up their economy.

I still hope that the rest of Iraq can follow.

Some of what you write sounds to me like anti-Kurdish propaganda - I don't believe it was the Kurds who were threatening doctors. This is more typical of terrorists who want to reduce society to chaos. Doctors, college lecturers, judges, etc are all prime targets for terrorists. (See Algeria.)

At 2:08 AM, Blogger m249viking said...

Hello, I found your blog today and have read through it earnestly. I am in the US Army and I am currently stationed in Baghdad. The last time I was her I was stationed in Tikrit. My heart and my prayers go out to you and all the people of Iraq. I have seen with my own eyes the suffering the Iraqi people go through everyday. Most poeple cannot even imagine what the Iraqi people have been through. I hope so much that God will bless all of you and bring you peace, prosperity and comfort. I wish that I could do more for you and I deeply regret the mistakes my country has made that lead to your suffering.

At 8:41 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Sunshine, I must agree with Don Cox. Perhaps instead of comparing Iraqi's current condition to Kurds the government and people should learn from the Kurds past considering they went thru much worse circumstances such as genocide. It has been due to their history why they now have their own government and flag. Culturally, they are their own tribe with rich traditions. Last year I visited Kurdistan and was shocked to see that there was no sign of post-war. No signs of all the damage Sadaam caused. Everything is very clean and new. Perhaps Iraq can learn from themt and also renew their cities.

Keep safe!

At 10:14 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...,0 Great artical to compliment your post.


At 10:23 PM, Blogger BAGHDADENTIST said...

Hi Sunshine
you are a great blogger and a brave girl im very proud of.
im sorry the post was delayed because of me.i wrote in the post that was supposed to be published the same facts,almost all of them.hope one day we may publish a post.sorry again


At 12:12 AM, Blogger Average American said...

Sunshine, what a beautiful and insightful post. I know it came from both your mind and your heart. Iraq will prosper and regain it's former status and more. People just like you will eventually lead Iraq out of it's current problems. Remember last year you were unofficially voted as the Prime Minister? That was not just a game. From what I know of you, either you, or someone like you, will come along and be Iraq's savior. (I don't mean savior in the religious sense)

May only good things be in your future Sunny, and may God watch over you and your family and friends, and may your life only get better from now on.

At 5:04 PM, Blogger John said...

Dear Sunshine,
It is always excellent to hear from you and to know that you are well and healthy.
As Don Cox said, you have to be careful what you believe, because in every country there are troublemakers who tell lies and then good people believe them. On the other hand, sometimes seeming lies turn out to be true because the truth is stranger than lies, but still you have to be careful and listen to all the sides and then use your intelligence.
Anyway, your family has so much to be proud of in you. I think that Iraq will recover because of smart and good-hearted young people like you.
Very best wishes and a prayer,

At 5:45 AM, Blogger subway said...

Hey im a youth from the United States right now im taking a class called Africa and the Middle East and we're learning about your country and blogging about it. I've read some of your blogs and i think it would be really interesting if you could possibly read my blogs and give your input and your prospective of it. I think that technology could possibly bring all of the world together hopefully, we the youth have a big say it what happens in the future.


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