Chaotic life ....

Few days ago, my grandma's nephew came and went with grandma to a friend's house which is in our neighborhood, because my relative want to propose to their daughter, they were driving in the street when HEAVY shooting started. I don't know what happened or who was shooting whom?! we heard shooting then explosion, it was very much near by.
After the shooting stopped grandma came home with pallid face.
We were planning to have Kabab on al Futur with Noom Basra juice, I asked her if I can help with preparing kabab and grandma agreed. It seemed like a normal day. My mom and I cleaned the house (Eid is coming, and we started to prepare the house to receive guests), the house looked very organized and clean.
I was thinking about Eid, my new clothes, & klecha (an Iraqi dessert we make in Eid), I want to make Klecha this Eid, because I want to see the Iraqi spirit of Eid, I love when the neighbors and relatives exchange klecha. it is very nice when grandma put the dishes on the table and say "this one is from your uncle A, and this one is from our neighbor…. "
In the afternoon my dad was watching news, my sister was in my grandparent's bedroom watching cartoon, my mom, brother, & grandparents were asleep, and as usual I was working on the computer, checking Iraq the Model's blog!! And Last of Iraqis.
BOOM, the window near the computer was broken as well as many other windows, smoke and dust filled the room, my dad and I went to see if everybody is ok.
My mom and brother were ok, but I heard my sister screaming and yelling, I ran downstairs and she was hugging my grandpa crying.. she got panicked but not injured.
Mariam was sitting on a chair near the window watching TV. When a big window fell on her and broke, there is not any scratch in her body which is a miracle.
she hugged me shaking and terrified, I cleaned a small space from the glass and asked her to sit down and relax while I bring her slipper.
I took pics for the house, my dad and grandma were checking the damages that occurred to our house ..
I didn't remember where was I, when a HUGE explosion happened (I lost my memory!!!!), maybe I forgot from the shock .. I remembered after 4 days, I was in my grandparents room when the second explosion happened, the sound was unbelievable, earsplitting, I felt like there was also a quake.
Mariam started to cry and scream again, I was trying to reach the living room, I couldn't see anything because of the sand and smoke, I kept sneezing and coughing (I have asthma and allergy).
I carried my 10 years old sister who was unable to walk, and ran to the corridor to hide from the horrendous shooting and avoid the bullets.
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The terrorists bombed a car few meters away from the house, then
After 5 minutes, a tank and 2 car bombs exploded, destroying the neighborhood, killing and injuring many innocents..
My injured neighbors went walking to the hospital which is about 2 kilometers away, because of the closed roads.
Helicopters kept flying, the neighborhood was surrounded, then an ambulance came and took the other injured neighbors who can't walk, 3 houses fall, killing their families, the damage in the neighborhood is unbelievable, I don't know exactly how many died but a doctor in the hospital said about 60 citizen injured as a first statistic. (no channel mentioned that).
We fixed the windows and doors, thank god we are all safe, the material things are not important, but it hurts me when I see my house damaged, and my family members exhausted.
we fixed our doors and windows a month ago! We can't fix the house every month! The situation is unbearable, I heard in TV. That our city is the second dangerous city in Iraq, after Baghdad.
At that day I was really tired and sick ,I had bad flu, after I inhaled the dust and smoke I could hardly take a breath.
At 6:30 pm grandma said "we have nothing to eat! I didn't prepare anything" so quickly I made very simple food (eggs and meat).
My mom was tired, fasting and cleaning, suddenly she fainted (hypoglycemia I think).
I am so thankful we are alive, god is protecting us because of our prayers, your prayers and our good deeds ..

my sister mariam

Th terrorists are like cancer everyday they increase in size and yet no one can vanquish them. they kill innocents in the name of a sect or religion while they don't belong to any. they are only pretenders who don't have ethics, believes, nor humanity .
they try to disperse us, and make us live in fear & danger, they want us to be hopeless, everyday many explosions happen, many innocents get killed and many Iraqis get kidnapped, there are more than 5 millions orphans in Iraq, and so many widows, my friend and I counted 12 car bombs in 48 hours, in one of the sides of the city, we didn't count the mines, nor how many times we heard shooting (they are so many to number).
Many times I say the terrorists won't succeed, evil don't win, but I sometimes feel they are achieving their goal. Two days ago a car bomb exploded near the gate of the university in Mousl, students and professors were killed for no reason, what was their guilt? Those young men and young women lost their lives, and no one care, the government don't care about our safety.
I am 15 years old, and if I was a president I could do so much more.
My mom's aunt live in the most dangerous part in Baghdad, she said " when the militias threaten the Sunnis, we hide in our Shiites neighbors' houses, and when the militias threaten the Shiites they come and hide in our houses"

Eid is coming, and I don't feel happy nor excited...
Eid Sa'ed to everyone.
Eid Mubarak to all of the Iraqis, may peace come to Iraq soon..
Sunshine