Instead of fishing ..

In summer holiday , we used to go to picnics at least once a week, with our relatives, and with my parents' uncles who come from Baghdad every summer holiday to spend few weeks, it was really fun, my grandpa's friend own a huge farm and he told grandpa to feel free and come whenever we want, they even built a shelter from husks and wood for us. I have great memories about those days, but my sister and brother don't .. Feeling bored, I asked mama whether we can go to the north, or nice place, of course we can't go to the north , because we are not Kurds and we don't have Kurds relatives that can come with us to the north (it is ridicules, Kurdistan is a part from IRAQ, the Kurds can come to Mosul and every city they want, but we can't visit the Iraqi cities in the north, It infuriates me , because there is not anything called "Kurdistan al Iraq", it is called "Iraq" only) mama said she'll try to convince my father to have a breakfast near the river.
We went to my relatives and told them about our idea, they agreed and I was extremely happy, I want to go fishing with "M" and "B" my best relatives and friends..
Few days ago , I was preparing my bag and writing on a paper the things I'll take with me in the next day..

At about 6 pm I changed my clothes and was ready to visit my relatives to discuss what we take for the breakfast and to which casino we will go etc, I was putting my jewelries on when dad come running and saying "OPEN ALL THE WINDOWS AND DOORS THERE IS A CAR BOMB IN THE NEIGHBORHOOD NEAR THE HOUSE) I was shocked and didn't think about anything I opened my room's windows and called our neighbor S to tell them about the car, so that they open the windows and doors and hide in a safe place , there dad replied

- hello?
- hello uncle , if you don't mind , please, if it is ok
(then I thought what am I saying?!!) There is a car in our neighborhood and will explode in a sec, thought I would tell you to ..
- he interrupted me saying , oh yea I knew about that, thanks , and stay safe..
I went downstairs with my family members and we stayed in a safe room, I forgot all the prayers, I was trying to remember simple says in Quran but I forgot every word, and started to think about 100 things in the same time, I felt scared from the stressed situation, there were policemen in our neighborhood and in front of our house, suddenly I started to laugh, I said " people change their clothes and wait for guests, or relatives, but I am waiting for the car to explode"
Then after a sec I continued " it is like the injection, we feel afraid from it but we just want to take it and end from the fear and stress"…
After an hour of waiting, and I think it was the longest hour in my life, we heard VERY HEAVY shooting, dad and grandpa asked us to go to the corridor and wait, after 30 minutes I felt tired, I took of my shoes, and kept walking in the corridor, I was standing near the stairs and the kitchen's door, BOOOOOOOOOOOOM the ground started to shake under our feet and the other door of the kitchen was opened from the bluster with so much dust, Mariam was screaming , and mama was saying " it is over now, it is over now" I said "thank god" but I didn't finish my sentence when I heard grandma shouting my dad's name " I couldn't run, I did nothing but freezing I just wanted to sit down , because my feet couldn't carry me, grandma yelled " Don't ever scare me , I though you were gone , why did you go out side??"
I felt relief to see him , but I was mad .. can anyone go outside to see what' happening when there is a car bomb two houses away??!!! Whenever there is a battle grandpa and dad act like 13 years old kid, it is not important to see who is shooting whom, it is important to remain safe.
Dad went outside to see the car!!!! Can you believe him? It was definitely not a wise decision.
I took off my clothes and wore other clothes to start cleaning and fixing what the vandals done ..
The car wasn't close to the police station this time, it was about 8 houses away from ours, among the citizens' houses..
Thank god the policemen noticed the car and knew it was car bomb, and told the neighbors .
My relative was shopping when he saw the car and a man told him it will explode , so he started to shout at the neighbors and tell them the car will explode and told them to open the windows and take care. My neighbor J's house was the nearest to that damn car (3 meters away), his house was badly damaged !!! they lost 95% of their possessions, their car , furniture , electrical instruments, their freezer and refrigerator were destroyed, even their clothes inside the closet were wrapped, it is a disaster, he lost everything in a sec, and his daughter was injured, his old mom who was really sick was really afraid when the explosion happened and since then she lost her consciousness , they talk to her but she doesn't reply..
This great educated professor who brought up 3 successful kids lost his house because of a freak crazy idiot terrorist. And in the next day he had a heart attack, of course after his loss and fear about his family. Poor man, his other daughter got married few weeks ago, she's in her honeymoon and don't deserve what happened to her family and house.
All the neighbor left their houses with their windows and doors broken and visited him, trying to make him feel better ..
Instead of fishing and having fun , I am cleaning and dusting ..
When the explosion happened the bluster entered our house with smoke and so much dust, I kept sneezing and coughing all the time, I am asthmatic and I have an allergy you know!!..
But I thank god, because we are all safe, and no one was hurt, and I thank god because the policemen knew it was car bomb and told us, the loses were sooooooooooo much less than the ex explosion, because we opened all the windows and doors, but it is still scary and the sound is horrifying, I thank god the car didn't have so much explosives like the explosion few months ago, because if it was a tank full of explosives and fuel I don't think anyone can survive from it, I heard two kids died because of the explosion..
Sunshine..
P.S WE WILL GO TO THE PICNIC, and celebrate our safety, (shush don't tell the terrorists!)