Days of My Life

Talk about daily life of a teenage girl in Iraq, and days of suffering and success. My nick name will be Sunshine..

Thursday, April 05, 2007

The world's darkness can't blow my candle...

Four weeks ago we had a party in school , I had a great time , I hadn't been in a party for a long time …
We didn't wear the uniform , grandma made Dolma , and I was really excited , when I woke up , it was cloudy ! and started to rain!.
We brought CD driver , and I brought some CDs , we kept dancing and singing . I changed my regular style , I looked quite different.

I had the best morning ever , although the C class really bothered the girls in my class specially me(shush.. they probably feel jealous).
At about 1:15 I was preparing to go back , when mama called she said that a car exploded in the street lead to my house , I use this road almost everyday , I felt really worried …
I was stuck in the street the policemen and US soldiers locked all the streets leads to my house! I saw the exploded car , it was burning , and people everywhere , one was injured in his head, shrapnels were in the street and the rest of the terrorist's body (not good view , I couldn't sleep well at nigh) .. 3 mines and two cars exploded but thank god we didn't get hurt ..
When I reached the house, I knew that mama and dad were in that street when the car exploded , their windows were opened that's why they didn’t break , thank god they are safe and alive … I can't thank god enough.
My exams started , I did ok , and I will have an interview with a famous channel soon , and I am writing an article with very famous writer
I am so excited , I can't wait till then..
My friend B invited me to her brother graduation party , he is in the medicine's collage , most of my friends have brothers and sisters in the medicine collage and they will go , but DAD didn't allow me to go, a relative of mine invited me too , they will have a big party with so many beautiful shows , like they will bring camels they made so many caricatures, but he refused , I was really upset and started to cry , I said everything he done and bothered me , grandma felt sorry for me and cried too, I felt relief after that! ..
I had my exams , after mid year we have 4 exams in every subject, I am expecting a full mark in mathematics , and higher than 95 in physics , history , geography , and biology , the Arabic teacher examined us in a new subject but did not explain it to us, the girls are expecting zero , I am expecting 2 out of 10!
The situation was really bad , last Thursday the headmistress asked us to leave the school as soon as we can, many girls didn't attend the school , national guards were in everywhere round the school I was really afraid while I was walking among them they said that two cars will explode! We were practicing a song with a band, we will share in a competition , we will sing a song about Iraq, I hope we will win , I liked the music so much , and after the training I decided to learn how to play the violin , anyway we left the school safely.
in the next day my mom asked me not to go but I insisted to go to school, I had a biology exam, we heard many explosions and shooting every now and then, I was writing when shooting started I forgot the sentence I was going to write. The questions were really long , four questions and each one has 4 long parts some parts has also more than a question I wrote as fast as I could ..
The road is really long and boring , with many bad stories , this week my friend R couldn't sleep for 2 days continuously, she saw a headless body thrown near her house with so much blood round it, I feel really bad for what the Iraqis face everyday.
A teacher asked me to help her to sell magazines and the money will go to the orphans I accepted of course and sold many magazines (in the school), I allocated a good sum of money ..
I want to congratulate all of the Muslims in the memory of our prophet's birthday , and all the Christians in the feast happy easter , & may all of the coming days be full of happiness and peace.
I know you miss mama , and I have good news , she started to write again , she published two posts..
Ok , your questions time :
a question I receive a lot is that " how do you feel about the US presence in your country ? do you want them to stay or leave? "
WELL , 4 years a go , I used to feel safe when I see the soldiers in the street, I thought that I will have a free developed country , and we will live in happiness and will achieve our ambitious , I thought I will have a bright future , I was so happy that I bought military clothes and wanted to be a soldier (kid's dreams!).
Now , when I see a tank I go as far as possible , when a tank come the cars go aside , and after they pass we drive as fast as we can , so that we don’t get hurt when some one attack the troops, I feel unsafe now , I worry about my family members , relatives and friends , I miss my aunt , I live in destroyed country full of terrorists , explosions , shootings , I don’t' go out as I used before , I see people I love leaving Iraq , I see my country bleeding and I can't do anything about that , I don’t trust the governments nor the presidents , I try to keep my spirit high , and say all of the darkness in the world can't blow my candle , but it is hard , I don't have enjoyable life , I miss picnics and fun , I miss the safety and security ,I miss a lot of things , I feel like a stranger in my country.
If the US troops will leave, a carnage will happen, they should stay I think and fix my country .. But as I say I am too young to talk about policy I might be wrong , that's just my opinion ..

For more questions E-mail me on or leave a comment. Thank you.
about the questions I got about my faith I will write a post about that … keep waiting!


At 1:39 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello Dear One,

I am struck by one of your comments. You have said that you are too young to speak about policy. I could not disagree more. You my sweet, are exactly who needs to be listened to. Sometimes the adults become to set in their ways, largely based upon the negative experiences they have faced. And while you Dear One have faced many dispicable, horrifying, and negative situations, your spirit of hope dominates each one of your posts, and I suspect each one of your interactions.
People within your own country as well as all of us who read and support you and thousands like you, are strengthened by these words and actions. Your spirit is indominable(fierce and unwavering) and you have more right to speak about policy and action than most. You are living it. Your voice should count amongst the leaders. You have much to teach these men and women.
Dear One, I am always so very proud of how you continue to strive for excellence. Your marks are amazing and even during an attack, you persevere and keep working. God has blessed you with tremendous strength.
I am pleased to hear that your family is doing as well as can be expected. Try and understand your dear Father. I suspect, he wants nothing more but to keep you safe amidst the turmoil. Sometimes, Dear One, parents have to say no.
Give "R" my good wishes and tell her that I pray for her safety and wellbeing. I am excited to hear about the interviews. You will do wonderfully. Again, you have so much to share with the already show more leadership than many actual leaders.

There is a Christian scripture that refers to each of us having the light of God within us. It means,'our light must shine, by doing such good works as men may see.'. The world may be dark, Dear One, but your light shines on your many good works, seen by many, many men and women around the world.

God Bless, Dear One. Keep safe, and keep your precious light shining. You are a inspiration to me, as always.
Love to you,

At 2:02 AM, Blogger Jhondie said...

You are the Future of Iraq Sunshine. Don't let anyone dim your beautiful light. You inspire me beyond words. Thank you!

At 2:40 AM, Blogger rutaug said...

I enjoy your posts. Please stay safe and I promise to pray each night for your safety and peace in Iraq.

You are an inspiration. You are the future.

At 10:40 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

my prayers are with you.

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At 5:23 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am lost for words. That you should have toendure all these things I agree If anyone has the right to comment you do. Stay safe you and your family.

At 9:33 PM, Blogger Captain Jarred Fishman, USAFR said...

Sunny! Don't worry, things ARE getting better around the rest of Iraq. In Anbar there is the Salvation Council, in Baghdad the surge is working slowly but surely. There are dark days, but we can triumph with all the doctors graduating- you see that life goes on right? Mosul will also see Fardh al-Qanoon operations soon. Keep the faith in better days! :)

At 11:07 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I was very happy to hear that you had some fun in your life with your party. I don't think anyone who reads your blog would be supprised to hear that you did good in your exams. Can you tell us what channel you will be on and who the famous writer is. I hope we will be able to see or hear it.
You will probably be famous in the future for all the good things you will do.

At 4:48 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am happy to hear that you did enjoy the party and music.

I never could learn to play a fiddle. I could do a few tunes on a guitar. One or two on a piano, not perfect though. Always had some mistakes.

We are all proud of your grades in school. Most of us could never reach the level that you do every test period. Some times we did good but other times we did low grades.

Your dad loves you and is afraid you will be injured. He is trying to protect you. Please try to understand him.

Keep shining for us because we need you to keep telling us how things are going in your life.

I will pray for you and your family every day. I wish all this killing would stop.

At 1:53 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Your candle is truly a spark of sunshine. Stay bright, life works in mysterious ways.

At 12:15 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said... is a new web site dedicated to collecting open letters from the Iraqi people to the American people. We accept and post all letters. We would love to have your participation.
With peace,

At 6:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello Sunshine. It's good to hear from you. I'm sorry not all the news is good. You and your friends have seen things you should never have to see. I still refuse to give up hope. I want you to have a good future, and it's your generation that can make it happen. Never give up hope, stay strong, and keep your Sun shining!

At 8:21 AM, Blogger Brian H said...

You're quite bright, you know, and your opinions seem motivated by a desire to understand and get it right, not a wish to please someone else or agree with the Big Shots. Your experience is horrific, but your judgment is sound; I would only counsel you to keep in mind WHOSE bombs are going off and WHY they are killing civilians. Here's an excerpt from a speech Winston Churchill once gave to some graduating students in WWII:

"Never give in. Never give in. Never, never, never, never--in nothing, great or small, large or petty--never give in, except to convictions of honor and good sense. Never yield to force. Never yield to the apparently overwhelming might of the enemy."

The original speech is on this site:

Great Good Luck to You.

At 9:45 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

"Greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world." this is from scripture for those who believe in God's strength to not only survive but LIVE in adverse times. God Bless You and your family!


At 5:41 AM, Blogger John Hinds said...

You will kindly forgive me if this seems pretentious. Your blog moves me deeply. I would share some thoughts with your permission.

Freedom or liberty is not the mere absence of slave status. Why do Americans speak so much of liberty? It is because it is God given. Beauty and truth are other things God gave us. Liberty is given us as a means of having commerce with God. He, likewise, is free when we are free. His freedom is by virtue of our freedom. And truth and beauty and wisdom and justice he enjoys through our living these things. So, you see, when America wants to give you freedom we want to share with you our way of seeing God. And I trust that the sacrifice of American and Iraqi families in this cause only creates a greater luminosity for liberty making it all the more a light that will shine in all the dark and desperate lives around the world that long for release from tyranny.

At 4:12 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello young lady,

I am an attorney from Texas, though my family and I have recently moved to Florida. My oldest brother's son (my nephew) is fighting Al-Qaeda in Ramadi. He was wounded in August but returned to his friends in December.

I just want to echo what some others have said here: Never give up on the democratic aspirations of the Iraqi people. As a famous American president, Abraham Lincoln, said, "Might may not make right, but right makes might." (Meaning, the strong are not always good, but the good will become strong.)

God bless you and your family and the Iraqi people.

At 4:36 AM, Blogger RG said...

"A teacher asked me to help her to sell magazines and the money will go to the orphans I accepted of course and sold many magazines (in the school), I allocated a good sum of money .." Sunshine

There are those who have no Dads or Moms or families, but with saints like you and your teacher there for them, they will always have hope.

At 12:42 AM, Blogger alex said...

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At 10:05 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

The average pencil is seven inches long, with just a half-inch eraser - in case you thought optimism was dead.

At 9:30 PM, Blogger alex said...

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At 5:30 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...


It is diagustingly inconsiderate of you to post such crap on someone's blogspot.

Please stop it.

At 2:35 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I believe in my country (USA) and its leadership, but I believe the American troops are at a crossroads right now. Many Americans no longer support our presence in your country and the affect on the troops is visible. You have seen the difference between how promising things were 4 years ago when American troops had the support of those at home compared to how difficult things are now when the support is low. This is no coincidence. I pray Americans will realize how much our words and actions affect the success of this war. Our soldiers must understand what they are fighting for - Sunshine and her people have a right to be truly free, but they need our help.

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