The world's darkness can't blow my candle...

Hello
Four weeks ago we had a party in school , I had a great time , I hadn't been in a party for a long time …
We didn't wear the uniform , grandma made Dolma , and I was really excited , when I woke up , it was cloudy ! and started to rain!.
We brought CD driver , and I brought some CDs , we kept dancing and singing . I changed my regular style , I looked quite different.

I had the best morning ever , although the C class really bothered the girls in my class specially me(shush.. they probably feel jealous).
At about 1:15 I was preparing to go back , when mama called she said that a car exploded in the street lead to my house , I use this road almost everyday , I felt really worried …
I was stuck in the street the policemen and US soldiers locked all the streets leads to my house! I saw the exploded car , it was burning , and people everywhere , one was injured in his head, shrapnels were in the street and the rest of the terrorist's body (not good view , I couldn't sleep well at nigh) .. 3 mines and two cars exploded but thank god we didn't get hurt ..
When I reached the house, I knew that mama and dad were in that street when the car exploded , their windows were opened that's why they didn’t break , thank god they are safe and alive … I can't thank god enough.
My exams started , I did ok , and I will have an interview with a famous channel soon , and I am writing an article with very famous writer
I am so excited , I can't wait till then..
My friend B invited me to her brother graduation party , he is in the medicine's collage , most of my friends have brothers and sisters in the medicine collage and they will go , but DAD didn't allow me to go, a relative of mine invited me too , they will have a big party with so many beautiful shows , like they will bring camels they made so many caricatures, but he refused , I was really upset and started to cry , I said everything he done and bothered me , grandma felt sorry for me and cried too, I felt relief after that! ..
I had my exams , after mid year we have 4 exams in every subject, I am expecting a full mark in mathematics , and higher than 95 in physics , history , geography , and biology , the Arabic teacher examined us in a new subject but did not explain it to us, the girls are expecting zero , I am expecting 2 out of 10!
The situation was really bad , last Thursday the headmistress asked us to leave the school as soon as we can, many girls didn't attend the school , national guards were in everywhere round the school I was really afraid while I was walking among them they said that two cars will explode! We were practicing a song with a band, we will share in a competition , we will sing a song about Iraq, I hope we will win , I liked the music so much , and after the training I decided to learn how to play the violin , anyway we left the school safely.
in the next day my mom asked me not to go but I insisted to go to school, I had a biology exam, we heard many explosions and shooting every now and then, I was writing when shooting started I forgot the sentence I was going to write. The questions were really long , four questions and each one has 4 long parts some parts has also more than a question I wrote as fast as I could ..
The road is really long and boring , with many bad stories , this week my friend R couldn't sleep for 2 days continuously, she saw a headless body thrown near her house with so much blood round it, I feel really bad for what the Iraqis face everyday.
A teacher asked me to help her to sell magazines and the money will go to the orphans I accepted of course and sold many magazines (in the school), I allocated a good sum of money ..
I want to congratulate all of the Muslims in the memory of our prophet's birthday , and all the Christians in the feast happy easter , & may all of the coming days be full of happiness and peace.
I know you miss mama , and I have good news , she started to write again , she published two posts..
Sunshine
Ok , your questions time :
a question I receive a lot is that " how do you feel about the US presence in your country ? do you want them to stay or leave? "
WELL , 4 years a go , I used to feel safe when I see the soldiers in the street, I thought that I will have a free developed country , and we will live in happiness and will achieve our ambitious , I thought I will have a bright future , I was so happy that I bought military clothes and wanted to be a soldier (kid's dreams!).
Now , when I see a tank I go as far as possible , when a tank come the cars go aside , and after they pass we drive as fast as we can , so that we don’t get hurt when some one attack the troops, I feel unsafe now , I worry about my family members , relatives and friends , I miss my aunt , I live in destroyed country full of terrorists , explosions , shootings , I don’t' go out as I used before , I see people I love leaving Iraq , I see my country bleeding and I can't do anything about that , I don’t trust the governments nor the presidents , I try to keep my spirit high , and say all of the darkness in the world can't blow my candle , but it is hard , I don't have enjoyable life , I miss picnics and fun , I miss the safety and security ,I miss a lot of things , I feel like a stranger in my country.
If the US troops will leave, a carnage will happen, they should stay I think and fix my country .. But as I say I am too young to talk about policy I might be wrong , that's just my opinion ..

For more questions E-mail me on livesstrong92@yahoo.com or leave a comment. Thank you.
about the questions I got about my faith I will write a post about that … keep waiting!