Days of My Life

Talk about daily life of a teenage girl in Iraq, and days of suffering and success. My nick name will be Sunshine..

Friday, August 04, 2006

Eight days in Sunshine's life .

Hello friends , I wrote my diary for Eight days ,
Friday 21/7/2006
9:00 am : I woke up after I spent one of the worst summer nights, hot weather with no electricity at all , with many nightmares , oh….. my mood is really terrible , and I am very nervous ( I become nervous when I don't sleep well )…..
9:30 am: I had my breakfast and I'm more relaxed now , my father's uncle just arrived my house , he visits us every Friday morning .
10:00 my relative just left, we were talking about the fuel and the high prices (normal Iraqi talk !!)
11:40 am : my dad and I cleaned the house , because my mom had an asthma attack ,it is the first time I see my dad doing the house cleaning the way he catch the mop is so funny! I have electricity now so I'll go and read my E-mails .
11:50 am : I hear shooting , there is something wrong in my neighborhood today!!….
21:10 pm: the electricity is off now , I had 20 mails, I'll go to read Anne of green gables book now , while listing to Radio Sawa .
12:40 pm: there is a heavy shooting again, it is the second time today.
1:20 pm : my friend H ( 16 years old ) phoned me , she invited me to her house at 6 pm, we are not in the same school , and we didn't see each other for 5 months , I am so excited , she will borrow some books from me ( a bullet in the head , the ghost , a murder in the airplane , the silent witness , & Asmahan and the British intelligence ) , I shall also teach her how to make macramé and to spin with beads , and she will teach me the appliqué.
3:30 pm: I had my lunch and drunk a delicious Iraqi tea I started to tell jokes to kill the time and make my family more relaxed during the absence of the electricity, and now I will go back to my book.
5:00 pm : I finished reading now , and I am going to prepare and change my clothes , I'm so excited .
6:00 pm : ready to go .
8:20 pm :I just came back and had lots of fun we talked a lot , the funniest thing that they had guests and their house is too small ( 2 bedrooms and one guestroom and a living room , they are 10 people in the house ,my friend sleep in the living room with her 2 brothers and 2 sisters , her mom and dad in a room and the other one is for her married brother , his wife and 2 daughters !!!) their financial condition is not good although there are 1 dentist , 2 doctors , 2 teachers , the other two boys work though they are studying in collages , they work in a shop as sellers .
" B" my friend's sister-in-low felt sorry for us , so that she allowed us to go to her room.
"B" lost her uncle , 2 cousins and her uncles wife last week in a bombing car , god bless their souls .
10:00 pm : I feel bored we don't have electricity , I am writing under torch's light , I'll join my family in the garden now .
Saturday 22/7/2006.
10:40 am , I wake up an hour ago , organized the house and beds , prepared the breakfast , and I'll start my day in reading .
12:30 pm : my mom came back from her work , and I have electricity now , WOW .
1:30 pm , the power is off , I wrote a post and published it , I also published some pictures .
2:00 pm : I had my lunch , I am thinking about my exams' results , I am nervous and worried but anxious in the same time .
2:10 pm: My father's uncle phoned us, he said that a car was bombed near their house, they are all ok, but there windows were broken and many chops were fallen in their garden .
3:00 pm : my mom and I were trying to find names for Rose's child, I found 8 till now..
10:00 pm , I wasn't in a good mood to write , I had three hours electricity , and I wasted 2 hours trying to publish pictures but I couldn't , I had sooooo slow services , which drove me crazy and I started to cry at the end , I had many mixed feelings, I was worried about my results, upset ,& angry from the internet company , my mom took me out from the house to some nearby relatives', I played a game " Fighting game " to feel better , their son tough me how to play basketball and it's rules , we caught butterflies from their garden….
I don't have electricity so I will spend the evening in the garden ..
Sunday 23/7/2006
10:00 pm : I woke up an hour ago , my mom didn't go to work , she went to apply a request for MSc study, I sent to her prof( he is also a family friend) a present , it's a copy of my assay for the contest of the American Islamic congress that I participated in , he felt so happy , our internet company sent an engineer to fix the internet problem we have .
3:00 pm: Najma's mom invited us to there house tomorrow and I am afraid that my dad won't be able to get us fuel (as it is not available and is very expensive in the black market), ….
3:30 pm: I am reading I'll finish the book tomorrow
5:30 pm : I stopped reading now , ready to go to my relative's house ..
10:00 pm : I went to my relative house , we did some shopping , I came back 2 hours ago , and watched Dr. Phil show, I had my supper while working on computer , I published a new post, read and replied many E-mails , I also typed my diary for the past three days , I hope the generator's operator will give us power , I want to see " Brat camp " he doesn’t give us power during the night at all , and only few hours during the day with very low voltage that I can't even work on computer .
I saw in TV an announcement says that our results are tomorrow, I can't wait.
11:30 my relative just phoned she got my marks, wow; I am the first one in Mosul who knows her results!!!! , my marks are good I have one mark not very good (85 in physics ), and I got 96 in Arabic , I can't believe it I thought I'll get 85 !!!!!!! , I am happy my par is 94 % and it's good for my hard circumstances , the hot weather and the absence of electricity, I got 91 in Geography and History , although I couldn't study history when I was in the emergency room and my mom read the geography for me , I'll go to sleep with so much relief.
Monday 24/7/2006
11:00 pm : I woke up an hour ago , my brother kept jumping over my bed I feel mad as I still feel sleepy ,I couldn't sleep because of the hot night.
When I opened my eyes my grandma was there and said:
-" I called the headmistress"
-"Yes?! "
- "your friend's par is higher than yours "..
-" I am ok with my par"
- "when" S" was in your age, 3 years ago, her par was higher ……"
- " so what?! , I don't care , at all "
Then I left the room and took a shower.
I know I didn't get the highest par , but I studied well and was happy in my par , but now , I am confused , and upset
2:30 pm : tears didn't leave my eyes , I'd never been sad and pessimistic the way I feel right now ,
my mom came back from her work feeling so happy she bought Pepsi for the doctors , workers and patients too!!!! For my success , hehehe , and when she saw me she said " I was expecting seeing you jumping and dancing , 94 % is not a low par , it is very high , you should be proud , don't care about what your father and grandma says , if you took 99% they would say why not 100% ?"
I felt better after that conversation, and from now and then I shall be proud of my par ..
3:00 pm , I checked my E-mails, I had 24 mail from my readers telling me that they can't wait till I publish my marks , I was so happy to read that .
8:00 pm: I just came back from Najma's house and I had fun with her, Hnk, and their friend Z. we talked a lot, and had grate time,
11:30 pm : I didn't have power , so I spent the afternoon in the garden ..
Tuesday 25/7/2006
12:00 pm : I woke up 3 hours ago , cleaned and organized the house , we are excepting guests today, I am so excited .
2:00 pm : I'm going to read now .
5:00 pm , I finished the first book of Anne of green gables series , and now I'll go to change my clothes and my brother's .
6:00 pm : my relatives will arrive in a couple of minutes, I can't wait.
8:30 pm : my relatives just left the house , we had fun together , first we were talking about their daughter marriage (will be on 3/8/2006 ), the party , cake , wedding dress etc , I had fun , then we started to talk about fuel , electricity , security , kidnapping , killing , etc , as I always say it's the ordinary Iraqi talk !!!!
12:00 pm: sorry for not covering my diary, but I didn't have electricity , and I spent the time in the garden .
Wednesday 26/7/2006
6:00 am , I AM MAD , I woke up because it is hot and we don't have electricity , I'm very sleepy , and nervous , I slept for 4 hours only. Why should I spend the night with out even a fan, while the electricity minister sleeps comfortably with his air-conditioner on?!!!!
1:30 pm : at 9:30 am I heard my brother Yosif , crying so I went trying to put him in bed , but I slept in his bed!!!!! And he woke up, I woke up again at 11:30, Yosif and I played in our small pool, and had a great time.
5:00 pm : I slept in the time between 3-5 and now I'll go to change my clothes and prepare the house , my relatives will come after 1 hour .
When I woke up , my mom told me that my neighbor " A" was kidnapped , I got shocked , and couldn't believe that , why would someone kidnap him ? he is not political , he don’t work with the US troops nor any political association , he is not a doctor nor an engineer nor a Pharmacist ,as they are reasons to be kidnapped in my country!!! , "A" is an ordinary and loved guy , all the neighbors love him , his father died and he take care of his 26 brothers ,sisters , his nephews and nieces , and his very old sick mom , she has heart attack , hypertension , and diabetes ." A" is a 38 years old father of 3 children (5, 9, 11), I pray that the kidnapers will free him soon .
8:30 pm : my relatives just left the house , I had a nice time , their son(24 years old ) borrowed 2 books from me ( country come-up and country come-down , and a very old book explain the English grammar) , and I showed him most of my books , he liked them , he knows that I like to read but it is the first time he sees my lovely library , we also talked about one of my favorite books " the body language ", (it's an amazing book, I read it more than 4 times ) , about Helen Killer , Jane Aer and many books .
It is really nice to find someone share you the same interests.
12:30 am; the kidnapers send SMS message saying " he is with us and fine . Do not call the police " .. Now I will go to sleep .
Thursday 27/7/2006
10:00 am : I woke up and had my breakfast , my mom switch on our generator , we don't do that often , because we have no fuel , I will work on internet , answer my E-mails , and type my diary, I didn't type my diary for the last 3 days we didn't have electricity .
12:00 pm : my mom finished working on computer at 10:30 and then It was my turn, I had many letters , I read them . I wrote ,sent 6 letters , and typed my diary, my mom is calling me , there's a nice show , she said , and I don't know what to choose computer or the nice show ?!.
12:30 pm : I saw a gorgeous show today , called " grease mania" , oh , I would love to go for one time in my life to a show like that , I love those kind of shows , I like the circuses , panoramas , any show contain music , dancing , & singing .
I just see them in TV, my mom is lucky she traveled when she was a kid to Denmark and to west Germany , she saw a real play city , zoo , beach, and things I can't even imagine , It is my dream to go out side Iraq , and may be visit Disney !!!!!! , will it be possible?? I am not very sure.
2:00 pm : I'll go to read now .
6:00 pm : I read for a while then called my friend "R" ( she lost 2 uncles , 2 cousins , her aunt's husband , and her father ), R took the highest mark in the class , I am so happy for her , now my mom , dad , Yosif will go to the photography , then to a library , my grandpa and Mariam went to our relative's house , and I am staying home with my grandma ..
8:00 pm : Good news , I am looking through the window , my neighbor just freed , my grandpa was in the street and saw him in the car , "A" stopped the car and hugged my grandpa , all the neighbors , his brothers , nephews, family , and son are running in the street , his brothers are crying (tears of happiness) , and his son is carrying a balloon , they are hugging him , it's very emotional view , and I am so happy .
at 7 : pm my mom went to their house , they told her that A was with his brothers , friends , and son when he was kidnapped , all of the men sprawled on the floor while the terrorists pointed their guns toward them,, except his 10 years old son , A's partner cough him form his arm trying to stop this kid from running to free his dad , he wasn't thinking about the guns nor the terrorists , he was shooting at them to leave his dad , thank god the terrorists didn't kill him , ( I heard that a 14 years old guy shot the terrorist in order to save his dad , the terrorists killed his dad and throw him in the street ) those terrorists are heartless.
12:00 I didn't have electricity so I went to the garden, we heard a loud explosion behind my house, and we ran to the house , I can smell the fume ( a lorry burned because of a mine ) , I can't breath well the house smells Smokey .
Friday 28/7/2006
12:00 pm : I woke up at 9 am , had my breakfast as fast as I could , we had electricity, I worked on computer for an hour and half , then the power was off , so I cleaned the house with Mama, organized and cleaned my room , and now I am in the living room with the family
02:00 pm , I was searching in my grandparents' library , and I found a dictionary , wonderful one ( English-English ) , I thought all of those books are about engineering , but I was wrong . No one touched those books for years, they are old and dusty .
I took a peace of clothes and started to clean them ( to read the books' names ) , my grandma told me to take any book I like , I took many ( here is the answer / learn Turkish / the Jewish's mores / & the stars , people , and the atom ). I am so happy.
4:00 I am typing my diary, now, and will go to my relative's house.
8:30 , I came back from my relative's house , their daughter finished the sixth class, but her par is 76 % , so they were so upset.. My mom went to our neighbor's house , to congratulate them for A's safety , and I went to the garden with the rest of the family , we played with water , then we heard a VERY heavy near by shooting , and ran to the house , I was going to fall down as there was water on the floor , but my grandpa caught me , as I hit the door , but I am alive with simple bruises in my arm and back, our electricity is good , we had power for three hours , Yes , I can't believe that .
11:00 I saw a fantastic show on TV 5 (it's a French channel) and I kept saying, "do you want me to translate what they are talking about ??!!" Hehehehe
I had fun , I wish I can go to a show like that , one day ..
I found my relative online , I'd never met him ,he is in my age , and I had so much fun , I asked him about his family, life , & school , it is the first time I talk to him , I don't remember him when he was in Iraq , he went to Oman when he was 5 I guess , but he remembers me , I am so grateful for the internet ..
1:30 am , we had an awful sandstorm , and my asthma is bad , I can't take a breath , I'll go to sleep now , I am so excited my relative's wedding is next Thursday, and my other relative's wedding is so soon too .
It is the last day of my diary , I had so much fun and felt like a reporter, although I was very upset and worried about my exams this week, but I hope you'll enjoy my diary .
Sunshine

10 Comments:

At 5:16 PM, Blogger Um Haleema said...

Thank you Sunshine. I really enjoyed reading your diary (except the part about how heartless your Grandma was about your marks!)I felt really sad for you having your spirits shot down like that. I thought my parents were bad when I would be proud about my high marks and I would get the response "well, that's the least I expected from you" That is nothing compared to your Grandma. At least my bubble wasn't burst like yours was. I'm sure that your Grandma has good intentions though. She wants you to never expect less than perfection that way you will always try your hardest.

Anyway, I hope I didn't bring back sad memories for you. I really enjoyed reading your diary. I hope that you keep a diary everyday even though you don't necessarily post it for us. You can just write it at the end of the day and write about how your day was and how you felt. Stay safe and remember that I keep you in my prayers always.

 
At 7:19 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I enjoyed that. But my heart aches that you have to write about such awful things and I can only admire your spirit. You can always find something good that has happened too. I an glad your neighbour is ok. Take care.
starliz

 
At 10:52 PM, Blogger wade said...

Hello Young Lady, when I read of your wanting to publish a book and some are asking what you would write about....I was reminded that about 60 years ago, a Jewish girl about your age was living in hiding in Amsterdam. It was terrible for her and her family just like the situation for you in Iraq today. But her diary became a worldwide best seller.
Just like you, she maintained her optimism in spite of miserable living conditions and I still remember some of her words when she wrote that "In spite of everything, I still believe that people are basically good". Not an exact quote but you get the idea.
Like Anne Frank, you are an amazingly bright and hopeful young lady even under terrible conditions.
Perhaps your book should be your diary. I am sure it would have as powerful a message for the world as another diary, written by a young girl 60 years ago.
Take care of yourself young lady, be safe and I will look forward to reading your book.
Wade in Houston

 
At 1:50 AM, Blogger jarvenpa said...

Yes, dear heart, your writing will remind many of Anne Frank (but may your life go on and be much happier than hers was). I see that you like many of my own favorite books--I love the Anne of Green Gables books, and Jane Eyre.
I wish you could magically drop into my little book shop, and I could fill your arms with more interesting things to read.
Of course--I always wish for an end to the bombs, and the sorrows.

 
At 6:02 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thoughts for Sunshine

You have the most important thing in life: Parents who love you. This is by far the most important thing in life.

But I see that there are some things I wish you had, so tonight I will pray for Sunshine and all her friends and family.
I will pray for a day when nobody she knows ever hears the sound of a gun firing in anger.
I will pray for a day when nobody she knows ever sees a car bomb or bomb of any type.
I will pray that her father is always able to find fuel any time he needs it.
I will pray that electricity is reliable.
I will pray for the rule of law and justice; and a government that protects her rights.
I will pray that the scourge of religous extremism is lifted from her region.

 
At 9:40 PM, Blogger Sage said...

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At 9:44 PM, Blogger Sage said...

Sunshine, what a beautiful post. So interesting and encouraging that you can be so positive under such terrbile circumstances. I hate to admit it, but I was surprised (and pleased) that "A" was released by the kidnappers. It seems very few are.

The diary is a good way to tell us what is happeing. I have not seen any other bloggers do that. More please :)

I didn't know your mother has asthma. I hope you are able to get the proper medicines for her and youself.

Good marks! I don't remember you saying anything before about what you will do when you finish school like Najma just did. I am just curious.

Be safe. We all love you.

Dan

 
At 1:58 AM, Anonymous marissa said...

Sunshine I'm so proud of you on your marks. You did a great job, don't think any different than that. You are a very strong, brave,and smart girl. I wish you all the happiness and love in this world. I'll always pray for you and your family and for world peace. I was so glad to hear that "A" was released. I'm very happy for his family! I'm so sorry that you have to hear all the shootings so close to your home. Continue to keep your head up for there is always a brighter tomorrow! PEACE ALWAYS!

 
At 8:35 PM, Blogger Heather Meadows said...

Sunshine, thank you so much for posting your diary :) I was really interested to see how you spend your days.

I'm so glad to hear that A was released safely. Like sage, I was surprised. I have become so pessimistic about our efforts in Iraq, because I feel so powerless. And yet you, living there and dealing with it every day, still manage to hope, and to enjoy life. I have much to learn from you.

I really enjoyed your recent pictures of the garden, and your description of Iraqi weddings. It's wonderful to find such beauty in the world :)

I hope you can travel someday! If you are ever in the US, you are more than welcome to stay at my house. (It looks like it would take about 6 hours by car to get to Disney World from here. Not too bad I guess...)

 
At 12:49 PM, Blogger Fille-de-Etoile said...

I understand how you feel about comparision with another relative's or someone's child's grades and overall academic stuff and even social life from some of my family. They really do want the best of me. But no one can be perfect. I'm glad that you're happy on your grades. Sounds like you worked hard even with the weather affecting your attention span. I admire you how you try to live a normal life even with those terrorist around you. Stay strong. Live one day at a time. Find something joyful in each day. Sounds like you're on your way on this. You are one special girl. Have a wonderful day.

 

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