Days of My Life

Talk about daily life of a teenage girl in Iraq, and days of suffering and success. My nick name will be Sunshine..

Thursday, December 21, 2006

Ana Ka'aba .....

Merry Christmas and Happy New year , I wish you all the happiness and I hope this year will be better , safer , and peaceful one ..
This year , was really tough for me ,I hope in 2007 we will live in a free country , with out shooting and explosions ( although I am saying that , and I don't think that I will ever live in peace).

I was reading my previous posts and I realized how unoptimistic and depressed person I become , many of my posts start with " it was tough week " " it was a horrible day " and so on .
But I really don't have good news to tell !
it was really bad week for me , I feel like something inside me will explode, I try to hold my tears all the time I feel so bothered from life , house , school , exams , and everything , the problems never ends . I hear the people's problems but I'd never say mine , because first I don't want to bother the others , and second all of the people I know have so many problems in their lives , so they definitely don't want to hear more !.
my marks are not bad ,I get the highest marks in English , mathematics, biology, religion .. I'd never take a mark lower than 90 in them , my par in mathematics is 99.4 % , and religion 100 % , but I still don't know my exact par in English and bio.
I hear at least five or six explosions every evening while I am studying ….
They are loud , they scare my brother very badly , and that caused a problem in his pronunciation , he repeats every word many times before pronouncing the other , I am really worried about him, there aren't any good doctors , the good doctors left Iraq...
I think I didn't tell you about R's computer , we bought it and I brought it to school , it was gorgeous , I asked the English teacher to allow us to take R during the lesson for few minutes to the headmistress's room ,and she agreed ( I have wonderful English teacher , although she said once" I will examine everyone postpone an exam from the beginning of the book " I was really worried that the bridges might be locked, or something happen ) .
Anyway R was completely shocked when she saw the computer , and we also took many pics and a video .
She's learning how to use the computer , and teaching her family .
She still have so many problems in her life , and I keep talking to her , not to listen to her aunts ( her dad's sisters ) who are mean to her .

You remember my last post about my neighbor who was injured and how bad I did in the geography exam , I took 87 , but the teacher will cancel that one , and I will have another exam on Sunday , I am really worried , she will bring me very hard questions
First I thought she liked me , but now I don't think so, she doesn't treat us well, and make us feel very little .
The chemistry teacher hate me , once she said " who didn't understand this subject " and I said " I didn't ma'am " , she said angrily " WHY , HA ? WHY ? WHAT I WAS DOING , WASN’T I EXPLAINING ? " !!!!!!
While some girls get her attention , she even tell them while she is examining us " this question is wrong " or watch that " , not only the chemistry teacher , many others , it is unfair ..
16 girls from Baghdad came to attend my school. , they had to leave their houses because of the unsecured situation , and some left without taking anything with them , the terrorists brandished them , one of them lost her brother and father , we made donations for them , and allocated 480000 ID, blankets , and new clothes , so I was really busy this week….
Eid Al athha will be on 31\12 , but I don't feel the Eid's spirit .

Sunshine .


At 12:07 AM, Blogger Kathleen said...

Oh Sunshine you are a shinning star! How horrible to live your life with a war going on around you. Hang in there. I am praying for you, your family and your country.
It is so important for you to tell the world what life is like for you and all around you.

In friendship,

At 1:39 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh, Dear One,
You have every right to feel overwhelmed and frustrated. You have been given more trials than any one person should have to live with. But, my sweet, while you see yourself as pessimistic, the rest of us see you as amazing. In the western world, we complain about the weather, taxes, grouchy teachers, too little time, too much work. Our problems are petty when we look outside our circle into what is happening in the world. There are people who have so much more to worry about, who handle themselves with grace and dignity. You, Dear One are one of those very special people. We have much to learn from you. So continue to write with honesty and openness, the lessons you teach us are more important than you can imagine!

Your marks are wonderful. You should be very proud. I wish I had a classroom full of Sunshine's. It is in your learning that you develop the knowledge and skills that will change this world. So keep studying, you will make your family and yourself very proud.

I am sure things in "R's" world are still very painful and challenging but, less lonely thanks to the gift you gave her. Your gift allows her to feel connected to her friends and right now, that is truly important.

Dear One, this is the Season of Hope and Peace for me as I prepare to celebrate Christmas. I will pray each day, as I always do, for peace in your world and in your heart. God Bless, Dear One.
Be well and be safe

At 5:03 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

We all want to hear from you even if it is not always optimistic. You are living through a tuff time and it is good for you to let it all out. Just keep trying and don't give up. That is easy for me to say since I am not in your situation. You are 1 in a million.

At 10:44 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Just thought I'd say Hey!!!! We you the one who was asking me where I was working on the internet? Take it easy, I'm enjoying this California weather!!!! I just moved here from the east sooooo :)

I made an extra $2000 a Month Using this site!!

At 1:30 PM, Blogger chikitita said...

I'm sorry a girl your age has to suffer all this.

At 6:49 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

bless you. keep safe. good luck with exams.

At 9:30 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thanks a lot for what You are doing!Information, that I managed to find here
is extremely useful and essential for me!With the best regards!

At 10:26 AM, Blogger David said...

I think what you have done for R is wonderful! Also, it was so nice of you to help the new girls at your school from Baghdad. I'm sorry that you have a couple of mean teachers. Perhaps they do not intend to be mean, maybe they are suffering from feeling to much stress in their lives. Living with explosions, injuries, and the deaths of friends and loved ones is almost more than anyone can tolerate. Truly, I wish that you will live in a more peaceful country next year! Take care.

At 10:29 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Just thought I'd say Hey!!!! We you the one who was asking me where I was working on the internet? Take it easy, I'm enjoying this California weather!!!! I just moved here from the east sooooo :)

I made an extra $2000 a Month Using this site!!

At 4:02 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi! I just want to say that I like reading your blog, and I feel so sorry for you and I wish you all the best in the future, cuz you are worth it!
god bless you

At 5:24 PM, Blogger Original_Jeff said...

Thanks you for the kind Christmas wishes, Sunshine. I hope you do indeed have a more peaceful 2007.

At 5:44 PM, Blogger Original_Jeff said...

One more thing. When you helped R get a computer, it reminded me of a very special prayer. I wonder if you have heard it. It is called the "Peace Prayer".

Lord, make me an instrument of Your peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is doubt, faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Where there is darkness, light; and
Where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled, as to console;
To be understood, as to understand;
To be loved, as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive---
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
And it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

At 7:12 PM, Blogger Ripama said...


Maybe you can appreciate this card more than I can; it's written in Arabic.

At 9:21 PM, Blogger David said...

Sunshine, the gifts for R look so beautifully wrapped! She must be very happy for all that you have done for her! :)

At 4:46 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dearest Sunshine,

Thank you for your kind Christmas greetings. I certainly wish that you could enjoy them with us. You mean so much to us. We all thank you for your kindness in informing us of what is happening in your life. We all wish that there was something we could do to make your life more enjoyable.

I agree with everything that For What It's Worth said in each and every comment she makes on your site.

I hope and pray that your EID will be a happy one.

I will continue to pray for you and all of the innocent Iraqi people.

I wish you all a happy new year!!!

At 7:28 AM, Blogger davidhughjones said...

hey sunshine

take it easy. don't worry about the chemistry teacher. here is something a friend once told me - "every time you worry about something, think:

1. will this matter to me next week?
2. will this matter to me next year?
3. will this matter to me at the end of my life?"

good advice I reckon.

I am in California with my crazy family and lots of problems and... oh wait, maybe I should stop complaining?


At 4:43 PM, Blogger In His Steps said...

Thank you Sunshine for the Christmas wishes. How I wish that you could have a life of peace. I'm sad that your optimism has faded. You are a very mature young woman and you are now seeing life for what it is. Perhaps you could try seeing life for what it "could be" or "should be". That is how God sees us. He sees what we "can" become and not what we are today.
Just a thought.
Love from across the miles.

At 5:43 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Sunshine, your optimism shines through even the tough times. That your concerns are always more for others than yourself says a lot lot about you. A teacher that ceases to learn, becomes ineffective. You have some that could learn a lot from you. May the coming year bring peace to all.

At 10:21 PM, Blogger Jack B. said...

Only you would apologize for not being optimistic, Sunshine. You really are an incredible person. I'd like to thank you for that e-card I recieved from you wishing me a Merry Christmas, it was very heartening especially since I've been ashamed I haven't commented recently on your posts (though I read them all). You are not the only one suffering through school tests...though I'm nowhere near as smart as you.

R is lucky to have such a wonderful friend as you and so are we who get to read your blogs. There seems to be very little hope in Iraq these days and what there is, is named Sunshine. I agree with David that your teachers may be feeling stressed because of the situation and acting out. Try not to take it personally.

I pray for your and all your Mosul family all the time that you may be safe. My best wishes for a hopeful season and new year for your family, especially your sibling and your wonderful mother. God bless you, Sunshine!

At 12:54 AM, Blogger Kathleen said...

Hi Sunshine,
Here is a Christmas gift for you.


At 12:20 PM, Blogger Highlander said...

Dear Sunshine !

ربي يحميك انتي واهلك والعراق ياشموسة
This was one of the most beautiful touching posts I ever read!
I am speechless to add more.

At 5:52 AM, Blogger heyduke said...

Too bad the rest of the world is not like you.

At 10:21 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.

At 10:39 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.

At 11:02 PM, Blogger indigo said...

Sunshine, you can delete the comments by the "spammers". You have to log into your own blog comments section, as if you were going to write a comment, and then there should be visible a little dustbin by each comment. I have not yet tried this myself, so I may have got some of this wrong, but I known that you can clean them out.

I wish your parents could take you to Syria. No child should see or hear the horrors that you have, or experience such unhappiness and insecurity, or be obliged to grow up so quickly. All children have a right to live in peace.

There is a saying that history is written by the winners. I think that all the hundreds of Iraqi bloggers (writing in English and Arabic) can be proud of the fact that, thanks to you and you alone, history will be written by Iraqis and not just by the invaders and occupiers.

The Americans are not leaving any time soon - the vast new embassy in the Green Zone, and the 14 new military bases in Iraq, says not - but, to their eternal shame, they are not using their presence to protect civilian Iraqis.

At 12:02 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Any Mouse,

I wish that you had the courtesy to leave this kind of crap off other peoples blogs.

You are a disgrace to all humanity.

At 6:59 AM, Blogger Diana Joy said...

You are my Sun shine!!! Thanks for the Christmas card :-) I left you a note on my blog :) You are my inspiration always. How's the book coming? Let's always keep in touch? Not a day goes by that I don't think of my special little friend!! You will always be in my prayers!!! Please stay strong. Blogging is for letting everyone know the good, bad, and ugly. Life is hard and it is important to share that. No one should ever keep all those feelings inside!
I love ya hon!
God bless you....
Happy New Year!
Diana Joy

At 7:04 AM, Blogger Michael said...

Saddam is dead. Please post and tell us how you feel about it. Thanks.


At 10:12 AM, Blogger sink sink socks said...

The deacon wouldget good ones, but somehow never could he find one sex auf der huette that the squiredidn't get a better.Jacobus's biscuit,light as Aurora's cloudlets, drank her honest coffee, inhaled theperfume lolitas gallerien of the late azaleas with which she decked her table, anddecided to postpone our departure one more day.Old 'Personally Responsible' had got beyonce kno hiswar-paint on, The Old War-Horse is smelling powder, were whisperedcomments.,sitting next to me, gives me her pinkel in den mund undivided attention, and places herhand familiarly upon my knee.

At 11:13 PM, Blogger No Hassle Loans said...

Hey nice blog. Although it�s not what I was looking for. I am looking for info on Payday Loans or a Cash Advance so I can buy some Hoodia Diet Pills.. I found your blog very interesting

At 1:31 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Shloniksh habibti? You and your family will be in my prayers every night. Allah is with you, allah knows. Keep on shining, what would the world be without sunshine?
If only everyone in the world were like you - well, lets say the earth would be brighter :)
Your marks are absoulotely outstanding. You are anything but pessimistic and considering you live in such hard times...well, you deserve...I dont know! I cant even imagine what you deserve :D

Here is a quote from Anne's diary:

"Our many Jewish friends and acquaintances are being taken away in droves. The Gestapo is treating them very roughly and transporting them in cattle cars to Westerbork, the big camp in Drenthe to which they're sending all the Jews....If it's that bad in Holland, what must it be like in those faraway and uncivilized places where the Germans are sending them? We assume that most of them are being murdered. The English radio says they're being gassed." - October 9, 1942

You are strong, Sunshine, stronger than any wieghtlifter there has been. You are strong and will remain strong. Look at the sun. It shines every day, no matter how many are hurt, no matter how many are killed, no matter how many times the moon covers it in an ecllipse. You too will have times in your life where your rays will be covered by sadness. But stay strong, sunshine, and you will shine again. I promise.

May Allah bless you

M :)

At 5:42 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Sunshine,hope you and your family are doing well during the holidays. You can help your brothers stuttering in some little ways. first don't make a big deal about it because that makes it worse. when he gets excited try to get him to calm down and take it slow. And a lot of people who stutter can sing songs without stuttering, teach him some songs and recitations.Good Luck:) I hope 2007 is a better year for everyone.

At 10:00 PM, Blogger Diana Joy said...

My dear friend :-) You might want to take off the looonnnngggg post from the horrible person who has decided to once again invade another childs privacy!!!! I am here for you Sunshine...Happy New Year and know that I am ALWAYS PRAYING FOR YOU!!!!

At 4:09 AM, Blogger Creative Outlet said...

Hey salam...what's happening in iraq is not fair , but life itself is not fair and we have to learn how to deal with it. I hope you keep on holding on to faith. Don't forget to pray. Inshallah something good will happen. You have to keep praying and hoping. If you need someone to speak to about your problems I can lend an ear. I can also give advice from my experience if you want. I'm in high school too, so I can relate to your problems.

P.s. I'm a big nerd(laugh out loud), if you want to talk to someone about school work.

At 7:44 PM, Blogger Sunshine said...

hello all , thanks alot for your comments,i love you ..
Creative Outlet :
I would love to hear from you again ..
Live Strong

At 11:09 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello!I enjoyed looking around Your website, colors,
layouts are great, keep up a good work!With the best regards!

At 6:50 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello, thanks a lot, You'v done a great job.I can only realize how much time and resources does it take to create such a resource!Great work, I am impressed!

At 7:21 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thanks a lot for this place, where people can leave their ideas and opinions, it's great!With the best regards!

At 4:05 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...
Join me and my circle of friends at, an online social networking community that connects people from all over the world.

Meet new people, share photos, create or attend events, post free classifieds, send free e-cards, listen music, read blogs, upload videos, be part of a club, chat rooms, forum and much more!

See you around! Bring all your friends too!

At 7:33 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

friend joy letter new old road

At 5:51 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...
Join me and my circle of friends at, an online social networking community that connects people from all over the world.

Meet new people, share photos, create or attend events, post free classifieds, send free e-cards, listen music, read blogs, upload videos, be part of a club, chat rooms, forum and much more!

See you around! Bring all your friends too!

At 4:31 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Sunshine....i dont kno how to thank you...u really made me open my eyes to all the blessings i have..i am so sorry for all the trials u have been threw and for the way you have to live with this war. I dont think it is right or fair that u should have to deal with it. My thoughts and prayers are with you always

Much Love

At 1:25 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Frankly I wish that you could enjoy them with us. You mean so much to us. We all thank you for your kindness in informing us of what is happening in your life.I along with my friends at aquabot wish that there was something we could do to make your life more enjoyable.

At 9:36 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

A month in advance....
Have a holly, jolly Christmas;
It's the best time of the year
I don't know if there'll be snow,
but have a cup of cheer.
Have a holly, jolly Christmas;


Post a Comment

<< Home